Will I ever go back to normal?

I’ve come down with a bug, y’all, and it’s seriously affecting my brain. I’ve been bit by BABY FEVER! Tom and I have been talking about it and we’ve decided that although we aren’t going to go overboard in the trying we aren’t going to prevent a pregnancy and whatever God decides is what we’ll go with. Ever since we decided that it’s *all* I can think about.

There are more than a few reasons why I’m still petrified to say that we’ve actually decided anything:

1. What if I’m a bad mother?
2. What if we can’t afford it? I don’t want my child to have a childhood of ration and ramen noodles.
3. What if it’s too much for us?
4. What if we’re not ready?
5. Am I sure this is what I want? How do I know if I’m sure?
6. What type of parents would we be?
7. Who will watch the baby while we’re at work?
8. What if we can’t afford Daycare?

Ugh, I’m making myself sick just thinking about it. Are these normal questions? I don’t know who I expect to get the answers from since only Men & my Nana read my site and I probably just shocked the HELL out of her! (sorry, Nana).

Anyway, on to a topic I’m more comfortable with, some of the keywords used to find my site via a search engine (I know listing them just perpetuates the problem, but I don’t care). Some of the recent shocking ones:

~”how to kill your wife” Seriously, you 6 people, DON’T DO IT! It’s not worth spending the rest of your life getting it in the backend because of that witch!

~”ed kowalczyk wedding” right….I wish I could see pics of that one too.

~”Psecu and sucks” My mom works for them, jerk!

~”joe & connie mitchell texas” RUN, RUN FAR & FAST!

~”hector majarro frausto” Who? I promise I’ve never uttered that name in my life.

~”ed kowalczyk gay” Oh. My. God. I think my heart just broke.

~”jack ketsoyan” uh….who?

~”tony bubby” hm…Bubby, one person is looking for you.

~”evank nude” Ev, is there something I should know? One person thinks there is.

~”eating too much twizzlers-black licorice” I can finish this sentence for you, person…”is disgusting!”.